Today's my January 1st

One year ago exactly, February 23, 2011, was the worst day of my life (at least so far). First, I got a bad piece of publishing news. And then I got an even worse piece of publishing news. (I don’t feel comfortable sharing what these were, but I guess the takeaway is that even after publishing more than a dozen books, not everything goes your way.) I was so freaked out that I just forwarded the second piece of new to my agent instead of calling her.

A few minutes later, the phone rang. I was so sure it was my agent that I didn’t even check Caller ID.

But it wasn’t Instead, it was LK (Lisa) Madigan’s husband with the news that she had died from the pancreatic cancer that had been diagnosed just eight weeks earlier.

This all happened in the space of a couple of hours.

As the year wore on, I lost two more friends, Bridget Zinn and Craig Warner. Two weeks ago, someone I’m close to was diagnosed with breast cancer.

Over the past 365 days, I’ve also had deadlines that I honestly did not know how I would make. I have worked so hard that I don’t even remember what I used to do on evenings and weekends. I wince when it’s sunny because the sunlight throws into relief just how dirty, dusty, and disorganized things have gotten in the past year.

There have been good things, too, that happened in the last 52 weeks. I’m not denying that.

But I’m still officially declaring today the start of a new year. A new year where I hope to not go to any memorial services. A new year where I read more for pleasure. A new year to live out the single resolution I made for 2012: “Less and more.” I want to go big with my family, my friends, my books, my fitness. I also want to cut out the clutter in my life, chuck all the little things that don’t add anything.

Here’s to a new year!

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Even if there are challenges, maybe I'll be a better and stronger person. But I'm hoping for an easy year.
I declared a new start to a year on December 13, 2008, a year after my mother-in-law died. It didn't go the way I hoped, but thinking of the anniversary as a starting point did help me work through some things.

I hope this is a better year for you. Hard years are no fun.
I almost didn't want to label it a hard year when I was in it, because it felt like that would jinx it and make it continue to be bad. Now that it's over, I'm fine with labeling it.
Here's to new beginnings and I hope your new year goes insanely well. Because holy cow, you need it!
I do need it! I cannot wait to clean my house, which may be pathetic, but I get excited just thinking about it. All I need to do is turn in a book March 1.
It's already been a year since LK has passed? :(

Here's to new beginnings.
Lisa would certainly love the idea of a new beginning for you! Hugs and love!
I have that sense of double-disbelief: can't believe it's already been a year, and can't believe it's only been a year. You know?

less and more
I like your plan. Cheers to a new year. It's all about making it your own.
Re: less and more
I didn't like to label that year when I was in the middle of it - worried I would jinx it. But looking back, I'm ready to move on.