aprilhenry (aprilhenry) wrote,

Today's my January 1st

One year ago exactly, February 23, 2011, was the worst day of my life (at least so far). First, I got a bad piece of publishing news. And then I got an even worse piece of publishing news. (I don’t feel comfortable sharing what these were, but I guess the takeaway is that even after publishing more than a dozen books, not everything goes your way.) I was so freaked out that I just forwarded the second piece of new to my agent instead of calling her.

A few minutes later, the phone rang. I was so sure it was my agent that I didn’t even check Caller ID.

But it wasn’t Instead, it was LK (Lisa) Madigan’s husband with the news that she had died from the pancreatic cancer that had been diagnosed just eight weeks earlier.

This all happened in the space of a couple of hours.

As the year wore on, I lost two more friends, Bridget Zinn and Craig Warner. Two weeks ago, someone I’m close to was diagnosed with breast cancer.

Over the past 365 days, I’ve also had deadlines that I honestly did not know how I would make. I have worked so hard that I don’t even remember what I used to do on evenings and weekends. I wince when it’s sunny because the sunlight throws into relief just how dirty, dusty, and disorganized things have gotten in the past year.

There have been good things, too, that happened in the last 52 weeks. I’m not denying that.

But I’m still officially declaring today the start of a new year. A new year where I hope to not go to any memorial services. A new year where I read more for pleasure. A new year to live out the single resolution I made for 2012: “Less and more.” I want to go big with my family, my friends, my books, my fitness. I also want to cut out the clutter in my life, chuck all the little things that don’t add anything.

Here’s to a new year!

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