aprilhenry (aprilhenry) wrote,

It's January 1st all over again

Two years ago, February 23, 2011, was the worst day of my life (at least so far). First, I got a bad piece of publishing news. And then I got an even worse piece of publishing news. (I don’t feel comfortable sharing what these were, but I guess the takeaway is that even after publishing more than a dozen books, not everything goes your way. In the second case, I was seriously worried about my career.) I was so freaked out that I just forwarded the second piece of news to my agent instead of calling her.

A few minutes later, the phone rang. I was so sure it was my agent that I didn’t even check Caller ID.

But it wasn’t Instead, it was LK (Lisa) Madigan’s husband with the news that she had died from the pancreatic cancer that had been diagnosed just eight weeks earlier.This all happened in the space of a couple of hours.

As the year wore on, I lost two more friends, Bridget Zinn and Craig Warner.

In 2011, I also had deadlines that I honestly did not know how I would make. I worked so hard that I didn't even remember what I used to do on evenings and weekends. I winced when it was sunny because the sunlight threw into relief just how dirty, dusty, and disorganized things had gotten

I declared February 23, 2012 the start of a new year.

I said I hoped to not go to any more memorial services.  And I didn't.  I did have two people very close to me diagnosed with breast cancer.  A third got very sick for a month and the doctors worried it was cancer - but it wasn't.  (They still aren't quite sure what it was.) where I hope to not go to any memorial services.

I said I would read more for pleasure.  To be honest, I sucked.  I'm trying again, though.  Right now I'm reading The Tenth of December.

I said I would live out the single resolution I made for 2012: “Less and more.” I wanted to go big with my family, my friends, my books, my fitness. I did pretty good!  I wrote tons, I got my orange belt, and lately I've been running as fast as I did ten years ago.

I also wanted to cut out the clutter in my life, chuck all the little things that don’t add anything.  And today I went through all my closets and asked myself if honestly I would wear everything.  I said no to a lot of things.  I should have said no to more, but its a start.

Here’s to a new year!
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