Grief is a weight

It's probably a mistake to be reading my mom's diary the last day our daughter will be in Portland.  She is moving from Los Angeles, where she has lived for three years, to Brooklyn.  She hasn't even lived at home since was 17.

But being around her is making the reality of her absence feel like a stone in my chest.

How do you other parents deal wiht your kids growing up and being far away?  For people who are in my daughter's situation, is there anything your parents do that makes you feel close to them?

The nice thing is that it's not been as hard as I thought. Oddly enough, I'm more sad about her not being here when she IS here than when she's gone. She's unique and amazing, and when I can see her I'm aware of what I'm missing.