Okay, I will admit to a meal made solely out of happy hour items at Ruth Chris' steak house. And a cherry/raspberry cobbler that is supposed to serve 8 and will probably only serve me over three days. (But the topping is low fat and I used Splenda to sweeten the fruit!). And yesterday I ate a plate of french fries. And then I ate my kid's french fries. And i would have eaten the rest of my husband's french fries if they hadn't taken them away. But, geez, I exercise every day. Shouldn't that count for something?
I went back on Weight Watchers in January, after having lost about 15 pounds two year ago. My weight was creeping back up. But it seems harder this time. Weeks where I have been super good and journalled everything sometimes netted a small weight gain.
A couple of weeks ago, I decided to go back on Core, which is eating healthy food (high volume low calorie) until you are satisfied. And not journalling. Only basically I decided it was eating lots of Core food plus some other stuff that I figured was covered by my exercise, or those 35 free points you get, or some mysterious waiver that I granted myself.
I always have some excuse. This past week it was:
- Kid had scary medical appointment (but turned out to be okay)
- Major shake up at work
- Talk of whether anyone (including me) would lose their job because I mis-spelled a crucial name in a memo re: shake up at work
- Office mate retiring after 12 years of being my go-to girl
I spent the first 24 years of my life being told I was too skinny. I ate my way through entire family size bags of Doritos without gaining an ounce. I also didn't eat unless I was hungry. Until I joined WW I had never dieted. I still felt I was that skinny girl. Now I wish I could get back to being neutral about food.