Never gone from my heart

It's been six months since I got the phone call with the news I'd been dreading.

Lisa (LK Madigan, author of Flash Burnout and The Mermaid's Mirror) may be gone from my life, but not from my heart. After I lamented at her memorial service that I had not kept that many of her emails, her husband slipped me some she had kept from early in 2006, when we were just getting to know each other. At that time she hadn’t been published and didn’t even have an agent.

She wrote:

I would have to be presumptuous enough to class myself as a ‘good writer,’ when I have no verifiable evidence to that effect. But what the hell!! I’ll go ahead and own it. I FEEL like a good writer. But then I worry that maybe I’m like this character in a Wilkie Collins novel (“Hide and Seek”) who devoted his whole life and soul to ART ... studying it, suffering for it, painting like mad. The problem was - he just wasn’t very good. ...

Despite THINKING I’m a good writer ... maybe I’m deluded too...

Here’s my short answer: no, I don’t think good writing can be taught. I hate to get all New Age-y on you, because I am so NOT ... but real writers are born with ink in their veins. They wake up every day anticipating when they can sit down and read, read, read, as if books are food. Words are so important to writers that they THINK about words all the time, the way some people think about sex. They cringe when people use the wrong words. They also fantasize about their next date with The Muse ... mentally calculating hours and minutes when there will be time to spill their thoughts out on the page. AND they also don’t just wait for a convenient time for the Muse to strike ... they grabe and snatch and demand time to write, like greedy toddlers.

People can be taught to write in a clear, journalistic fashion, I believe. But the kind of writing that pours out like music - that can’t be taught.

Thus endeth today’s pomposity. We now return you to your regularly scheduled conversation.

I told Lisa that a lot of times writing for me is work, and that I don’t always long for it. But that I always enjoy having written.

I would love to be able to talk about books and writing with her again.

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That's a great photo of the two of you. I'm sure it's bittersweet to reread her words. Such wise words she offers -- much of it I relate to! I also relate to exactly how you feel, that writing is sometimes work and punching the clock can be tough at times. But it feels great once it's done!

That is a great photo, and what a treat to be able to read her words. Two of her remarks in particular stuck with me: that real writers have ink in their veins, and that "the kind of writing that pours out like music--that can't be taught." I think it's a reminder, too, that if you have the type of writing that can pour out like music, you should make time for it--no excuses.
Thanks for sharing some unexpected Lisa with us. I was organizing some of my books yesterday, came across Flash Burnout, and took a moment to remember.

I can't believe it's already been 6 months....
It's hard to lose a dear friend. While Lisa and I were not close, I did come across an email she had sent me awhile back ago. We were trying to get together, but alas, our schedules didn't work out. We thought we'd have time - we'd get together some day. Now there will be no someday. From everything I've heard about Lisa, she sounded like a truly wonderful person. She's missed, for sure. HUGS.
Losing two friends this year reminds me that time is precious and I need to make time for the things that are important to me.
I talk to her in my head all the time. There are so many things I'm sure Lisa would love to talk about.